Too Much Stress

Maybe I should start doing cardio exercise again.

Stuck

Though I have been making progress in school, and made a huge amount tonight, I still feel like I'm stuck. Like I'm never going to get finished, or get any closer to going out and starting my life. It's really beginning to stress me out. I ended in Chemistry with an 89.23%, and might possibly be able to bump that to a 90% if my teacher will let me.. I'm up to an 89% in Latin, and have the final exams left. (2 of them for Latin)
I'm unsure of what I have in English, due to not having all of my assignments graded.. and still have a bit of work to do in precalc.

=(

College

I have brought this topic up to a few people, and they just don't seem to understand. When I think about college, it makes me so depressed. Sure there are some happy parts to it, but what it gets down to is that pretty much everyone I care about will be going somewhere different. They have plans. I have no plan. Nothing is pulling me in any particular direction so I am left to choose what my family wants me to do. Some type of mechanical engineering. I don't really care what college I go to.. and no matter what I choose I will be getting torn away from some one I care about. It makes me want to just isolate myself and not get close to anyone. Because what is the point if we will just be separated? It doesn't really seem like there is any. I would rather not create a friendship if I'm just to be separated.

*UPDATE*
And now I'm grounded from any type of socialization or fun, I guess you would say, until I finish school.

The Defenses Are Up