So this girl just doesn't seem to understand where my heart is. She thinks that the only real solution would be to stop talking to me.. which would not help at all. It would crush me.
But I can feel something coming. She's leaving for college soon. And I know how it will work. She's a knockout, this girl. So some guy will come up, and even if she sees that he is interested, it will be no big deal. Because there's no other commitment or guy that will be holding her up. And I will say nothing about it, because I don't like upsetting her if I can restrain myself from speaking.
So anyways, this guy will be friends, and eventually they will grow closer and closer, her seeing no problem with it. Until, before she realizes it, she's fallen for him. And then she will come to me and say, "Caleb, I met someone."
And what can I say to that? Nothing!
She will be a few hundred miles away, going to college. She doesn't need me. So what will there be to stop her?
Of course, this happening will completely split us apart. Because it would be completely inappropriate for me to hold any type of contact with her thinking about her the way that I do. Leaving me alone and broken.
So it looks like I've gotten myself into a lose-lose situation. Awesome.
1 comments:
caleb! i thought youd disappeared entirely until i accidentally stumbled across your blog and found that youre actually still alive. im sorry that things arent going as amazing for you as they should, and i hope that this knock out girl of yours realizes how lucky she is to have such a good friend as you. keep smiling, and keep taking pictures. things will get better.
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